Sugeng Tindak, Bapak. See You Soon. Really Soon.

well hola internet world! como estas? muy bien!

today (3/10/13) i am posting n my granny's crib in Magelang. yep, two days ago, my father was called by Heavenly Father. yes, now he's there in heaven, smiling, looking at me and my mom..

well, sugeng tindak Bapak! goodbye, we'll meet again in eternal life.

here's some pic from the ceremonies yesterday

funny eh? nah, it is life.

well, hello internet world. hello blog.

in these times, it is a very rare free time that i can search, surf, write, or anything in the internet world. campus life is on, works needs to be done.

well it takes a lot of sufferings and sweat. but i believe i can pass it on. and next year meet me there somewhere.

but, i admit, i need to say a goodbye to my home base pastor. for The Lord has something bigger for him. :)

and i thought it was fun in uni year and everything is on. please pray for my success and focus.

:)

new place. AHAY!

all hail. i am now in a new place. a new community. a new reality. everything seems true. i believe that i was sent here to be the light.

oh hey, post-mine, i've passed you just now in your blog update. i'm glad you're back with him. well have a nice things both you guys. i am still searching for the right one. well different paths okay? hahahahaha

well i got a brand new big family here. thank you Purwokerto for being a nice city for me. thank you for being such a good relief from a really bad pain. thank you for giving me a new family. thank you for giving me new experiences. i am really glad i am sent here.

well like what Beatles say in "In My Life" single, yeah i cried after that song now, some has to be passed and left. but well we need a non comfort zone right?

yep it's me Henokh Ngili, midnight in an internet cafe. out of my comfort zone. watching her going back with him (again). doing lots of things to be true. and trying to exit from reality, but believes that these things done here.

adios te amo xxoo :')

new haircut :3 new start ;)

well it has been some moments until today i have to say "adios bitchachos" to my big afro hair.. well i just wanna welcome this new semi-mohawk that i think it will only last 3 months or 6 months till i got back my afro..

it has to be a new start for me in uni life! well welcome new start, new hopes, new realizations!

ein freak und ein weirdo? nein. ich bin ein loco.

am i freak and am i weirdo? well i thought i'm just one kind of loco. i ain't those smartass with no life, or even dumbass with no brain. i am just the loco.

well, ass you can see at the title, i am a loco. the loco things inside of me want to share something to all of you. the loco part of my life needs things to be truly loco. he himself like to present the world of loco. so this is it.

the loco thing is i am not thinking and worrying about my future anymore. i know for sure that i'll shine brightly. so what for am i worrying? and yeah, like i've said in the last post, i am moving (for at least a year) to Purwokerto. and this is what i got from 2 days driving, going, eating, and sleeping. Jogja-Purwokerto-Jogja.

after a lazy jazzy Sunday evening with Kobe, lots of good and cheap food at Dixie Easy Dining, awesome jazz vibe by The Everyday Band and Diwa Hutomo and Friends, i got back home with my sleepyhead because of too much Milo and yeah, fall a sleep. get up at Monday's dawn, fulfilled with new energy, packed some things up (nearly as what described here), shower, eat breakfast, and yap i'm on my way to Puwokerto with my mom, David, Ayub, and Tika.

well let just say the things are good there. i got my rented room. it's a new building, just consist of 4 rooms, with inside private bathroom, no A/C (actually we don't need it there), and already got things inside. i only have to pay Rp 4.000.000,00/year (400 US$ or 500SGD), or let's just say Rp 350.000,00/month (35 US$ or 50SGD). and free of water and electricity bills. we got a big tv for 4 people there. but no i-net access/wi-fi (so i got to buy modems or tell the landlord i'll put i-net there).

i'll let you know, Purwokerto has lot of good food. such as:
1. Gado-Gado Om Hoogy. (for description of Gado-Gado, click this) Located in Jalan Mesjid. it was in the middle of the "kampung", behind the Mesjid Agung Purwokerto (Big Mosque of Purwokerto) at Aloon-Aloon (city square) area. We also got Mendoan there. we didn't pay anything here, the stall was David's auntie's. hahaha. next time i'll pay lah..

2. Sroto Jalan Bank Haji Loso. Sroto is a kind of Soto that is special in Banyumas Region especially Purwokerto. they add peanuts to the Soto, and eat it with Ketupat (rice cake). located at Jalan Bank or Jalan RA Wiryaatmaja and opens day and night. it was cheap, only ten thousands rupiah/bowl (1 US$ or 1,5 SGD)

3. Es Duren. the perfect combination between pure durian, coconut milk, skimmed chocolate milk, and ice. it is so yummy. located in front of GOR Satria, it was one of good spot to hang with friends and eat the ice. costs 13k rupiahs (1,3 US$ or nearly 2 SGD).

4. Ayam Kremes Sae Niki. located at Jalan Mesjid. it was good taste of chicken, tempe, tofu, and lots of veggies. not expensive though. sorry, i forgot to take pictures.

there are also some food that is a "must visit and eat" but the time is not enough, so i ain't visit them. but yes later i'll go there. those are :
1. Bakso Tai Toh. chinese porkballs with intestines. everyone say that it's so damn delicious.
2. Bakso Pehking. javanese meatballs. they say it is good but later i'll try.
3. Bakmie Pangsit Cahaya Mas. chinese pork noodles with wanton and dumplings. 5 star taste!
4. Mie Keriting Cabe Rawit. curly noodles with chopped chilli padis.
5. Nasi Padang Indonesia. even Sederhana also opens there, but they said that NPI is tastier.

well that's for food. and those names are also on Jalansutra's list of Purwokerto's Good Food. but wait, PETE is the best damn thing that i will always find in every part of Banyumas Region, and i am fucking loving it!

one thing that makes me happy is, Purwokerto is not far from Pageralang (20 to 30 minutes with motorbike), which is the location of Sanggar Candra Birawa, Ki Kukuh Bayu Aji's (one of Banyumas style Dhalang) house. i'll visit him in my next trip there, and will often visit him when i live there.

and when we go back to Jogja, it was still a "mudik" season, near the Eid Mubarak day. have to pass some traffic jam and see some funny things all way home. and we take a new road to cut the traffic jam, and it was like all american highway. fyi: the new road we used has lots of beaches. need to test one by one.

 hey, sir. don't use government's car for mudik okay?

 now you work hard.

 at gas station. it's only a quarter of it.

 new road. all american highway.

 gondes on cam

 speeding, why not?

140 km/h, huh? that is still slow.

Well i thought it is enough for today's post. i'll write you more about loco things in my life. and well Happy Eid Mubarak, be as clear as vodka, be as white as cocaine. hahahaha. adios bitcahchos!

SALAM MESUM MANUSIA TAMPAN!

no need to worry. face it and still keep the pace.

yeah.. well..

actually, it is bitter. maybe it's just not bitter. but bitter and sour, think about that, how could your tongue taste it? yeah if that was just for tongue and lips, it thought it would be the taste of "filthy nightmare" kiss. but how if it is about you life, actually, phase of life?

well well well..

being not accepted in medical uni in this year for me is a kiss of the combination of sour and bitter.

but, yes. everybody must face a hard time in life. me and my mom have got a vision about this. this is a purgatory for my body. it will kill my ego, my selfish, my narcist, my cocky, my whatever you call as the feeling of "I AM THE GREATEST WITH NO ENEMY" part of my life.

oh, right, i haven't told you all yet. i've got accepted in Nutrition program in a city called Purwokerto. check it here Purwokerto and this is the Universitas Jendral Soedirman. well Purwokerto is not that redneck city even they don't have any cinema there (but thank you Pirate Bay!).

wait, wait. there is good part about it. i can learn a lot from Banyumas' culture. it was amazing though. could you imagine, now i can learn sulukan a la mBanyumasan right from the source. then i can watch and learn Ronggeng, Lengger, and any traditional dance a la mBanyumasan right from the heart of Banyumas. and the thing that is very kool, the food is so damn good. well i feel more happy. :)

at least it's just one year, and next year i will and still try to get the test for medical major in uni and get the title M.D. just like this fucking Leslie Chow from The Hangover trilogy

okie dokie, it is dusk here going to be dawn. and i am writing from my crib. here. a kiss and pose from me and sweet baby Bronx (he's naked and i love all my teddies naked)

well i'd like to share something:

be grateful in everything. let The Lord guide you, not you lead with your own logic. even sometimes you will see it hard, but trust me. whenever and wherever you say no to worry, you face it, you keep the pace, you kneel for it, and you are grateful, you will find amazing things and lessons in your life

okay, i've got to rest and well enjoy every single little thing.

p.s. : i am happy that i have left you. if i don't do it, i do not know what i will be. :p

17-07-2013 Anno Domini

hey dudes! it's me again in the middle of July, in the middle of one legend city of East Java. Malang, baby!

it has been a not-well rest in the train for nearly 8 hours, from Jogja to Malang. but hell yeah, here i am in the heart of the city of Blue Rangers a.k.a. Arema :p

22.15 the train departed from Jogja and at around 5.30 we arrived here. take the "angkot" then rushly goes to the guest house. luckly i met a beautiful high school girl in the "angkot". but unfortunately i was with my mom, so there's no any pickup. haahahahahaha.

at the guest house, it still closed yet, we couldn't enter it. but here i am luckily the KFC is just next to the guest house. This time i'll stay at Kawi Guest House Jl. Kawi Atas 40, not at the Bandoeng (Jl. Bandung 1). so thank you Col. Harland Sanders for your early KFC Rises and a gulp of coffee. aw yeah.

well it's kinda good to live here at Jalan Kawi. i'd like to tell both of my buddies, Noel a.k.a Da Ge "the doctor wannabe" and Ariel a.k.a Koh Yangsen "the HK's mafioso" that those jackpot mamafakin food stall that closed that day, now opens. i found a cool and yummy Pecel Tumpang, Nasi Buk, Bakso (this one is pork one), and even Nasi Babi @ depo Gang Djangkrik (just across the guest house). it is true that Jalan Kawi has a lot of yummy food, but the one that Andri a.k.a Pek Tjoen "The Kandang bassist wannabe" told us is just the shit dude. i thought he would swallow all kind of food, even it was deep fried shit with sauce.

well it is just some morning writings, luckily already inside the guest house, and i need some rest before checking the class for test @ Brawijaya Medical Uni. and pray for me guys, tomorrow i'll face the test. and i'm in love with this city now. bless me Sweet Dear Lord Father, Jesus, and Holy Spirit. i just follow wherever You order me to go.

ciao bitchachos. lots of kisses and hugs from East Java, down below Mahameru and Bromo, in the heart of Malang. The heritage of East Java. Ongis Nade, Kera Ngalam!

so let me write something for this (nearly) half of july

well it has been a long time i write nothing on this mini-me electronic diary. it has been some days of sorrow ad suffer. but like what Ali told, "don't quit! suffer now!", i've done it.

actually it's not that sorrow and painful. i'd just been loco for a while (even actually i'm a loco in my everyday life) hahahahaa..

it has been a nearly expert mode june and july in my life. a lot of things i saw, but none there to share. it has been two months when even those damned bitchachos also gone away. those bitchachos will realize, someday, yes someday.

the best things of this june and july is my fighting months. not just fighting for a chair in a uni for medical program, but it is also a fight in faith-hope-love.

why it was a fight that sounds so creepy? yes it was those moments that i have to fight a force that actually normally or even locoly, as a human i can't stand. but thank GOD i survived, and even i won for some fight (but still in the fight for uni intake). yes it is about some problems that i have to face, tough choices that i have to choose, and a walk and run to catch the star in my life. a lot of people told me that i've thrown away the love, but i have taught them what love is. and even me, myself, has known the true love. not just a lust, or even the way of making love (and even till today i never do it, i'm a virgin and i am proud -> i only did some make out though, hahahaaha \m/ ). i even could learn a lot of things, and know the best damn track and path for my life, that GOD had planned for me (the matter is, am i choosing that?). aha, fyi, i suffered a lot of fight to face mamafakin gossips about me and heartbreaks. and i survived! hallelujah!

well loco rite? hell yeah loco.

now let's just move from that topic to another. my free life (again and again).

yes it has been months i am being single. and it has been months that this world pushed me to make things back with her. but like what i have said. no is a no. it has been a tough choice, and i ain't regret anything. i even enjoy a lot of my me time. i actually pity her, cause i thought that she's doing a lot of things, getting a lot of ons and offs, searching a way to me (that i actually thought already a dead end). well i just jumped on her electronic diary too, and jumped on (not stalking, and it's not my coolness part) tweets. but fyi i have done those moments i'd lost with my family, my buddies and bitchachos, and even myself. now i can enjoyly doing things freely. none trying to capture me. as what Sting said (and i actually believe this) "if you love somebody, set 'em free".

nah, now the moment. actually i'm a bit envy with my cousins and their relationships. i love being single and free, but i also want someone here with me (but still give me my freedom). ah. but like what Beatles said, "obladi, oblada, life goes on, oooh..." hahahaahahaha..

well let me a little bit sum up what i have learned about love and relationship till today:

1. if you love somebody, set em free. why? cause everybody's free man. we are free to choose. you wanted freedom, give another people freedom. do for them what you wanted them to do for you.

2. love is not lust. hear the true voice of your heart. don't do things just based on pity or lust, or you'll drown in your own made "Cauldron of Pity and Lust". don't do that. i am the living example. i've suffered and survived.

3. draw yourself near, more and more to GOD. the closer you are to Him, the closer you are in a relation with human. but remember. live His path, not your own made path, or even world's path. (a lil bit religious huh? but it is true, i guarantee)

well at least i enjoy this nearly half of july, with all of those ups and downs, ons and offs. and just pray for me for those fights i still have to face. fyi i am waiting for the result of UM Diponegoro Uni, UM Gadjah Mada Uni, and still have to fight for SPMK Brawijaya Uni. i believe where ever GOD put me, it is the best.

and let me share a message:

"just wait and obey and do the things. and then you will reap a harvest. with one condition. no quitting at all"

all i am here from my crib, telling you this (nearly) half of july. xoxoxo

fat burning, sweat mining, health gaining

it has been some time since the last time i wrote something in this blog. then here i am again. the me with new things, yeah.

so this is the day, after 21 days since my last time i counted my weight. yeah, 21 days ago this is my stat :

190 centimeters
110,7 kilograms
XXXL shirt size
44 pants size
46 shoe size ( 12 in US measurement)

the body size was awful, cause it is not balance. i got too fatty tummy. i also got lot of stretch mark. -__-"
i felt awful cause of that. i didn't know what to do with that.

but,

21 days ago, i've started to fast. and you know what this is my stat now!

190 centimeters
100 kilograms ---> look at this
XXXL shirt size
44 pants size
46 shoe size ( 12 in US measurement)

see, i have lost 10 kilos in 21 days! i just fast and combine it with some sports. i also drink tea in a routine (like always i do, without sugar), and eat more veggie. i feel better with my body.

you know what, when i count my weight in biology lab today, and after i see the result, i'm jumping for freaking sure! you can ask to my friends and my teacher. so the chronology was like this :

it was the 3rd day of practical exam for the 12th grader. i've passed my chem and physics test, and this morning i would face the bio test. i went to the lab for the test, and i saw a weight scale. i jumped on the weight scale and see the result. i am amazed, my friends and teacher too. i've lost 10 kgs, and i jumped like freakin' jumping, and screamed to the max.

yeah, 10 kgs in 21 days. need more days to get to the 90 kgs. i have to go for it. i have to flatten my fatty tummy. i have to burn my fat, mine the sweat, gather muscles, and gain health. for sure.

well, that's all for now, here's for you some my class' Harlem Shake video :

the same world, the other man

well, it has been a long time since my last update on this blog. it was like a million decades without any piece of update and even upload. so, this is me back again gonna tell some stories that had passed, cause i ain't a fortune teller that'll tell the future, even sometimes the Lord give me visions about that. hahaha.

first thinks first, first acts first.
the first story came down from the valley of Bandungan, 1 month ago. it was the place where me and around 50 people of us went for a retreat. we spent around 3 or 4 days there, with a lot of well sleep and well food, and even well chats and worships. and in the last night of the retreat, we go to hike to the Mt. Ungaran, 2050 meters above sea level, guided by the Jesuits priests. and i still wonder till now, how my feet can get there (even i was wounded and had to stay at the last "post" like 500 meters after the tea fields, around 1800-1900 something masl) --> i actually can do it till the peak, but the time we have is not like my other walking, trekking, or hiking time. we got a very busy schedule there, cause we started hiking at 11 PM, and have to be on way home to Jogja at 1PM. yeah, i feel lil' bit disappointed dude. here's some pics about the mountain's view and how my jeans, t-shirt, and hoody condition after that.

second, is better than not doing at all.
the second story, came up around a week ago, nearly 2 weeks. it was my Grandpa's (from my mother side) birthday, and Grandma's (from my father side) birthday too. but i only could go to my Grandpa's party. a lot of good food, families are there, good time and quality time. (although i'm the one that had to drive for 1,5 hours to Magelang, and back here to Jogja like 1 hour, when almost everybody in the car are sleeping. --> i put loud rock music on the deck to keep me alive) here's some facts, cause no pics = no facts

third, comes up after the second.
the third story came up in Saturday, Sunday, and today. last Saturday, me and Gangsa Kukila (our gamelan team, "Gangsa" means Gamelan instrument, "Kukila" means birds, cause we all are boys, if you know what i mean) helped the language class in their play : "Bila Malam (Semangkin) Bertambah Malam" (when the night goes darker) adapted from Putu Wijaya's script and play. it was conducted by Cak Didik (our literature teacher), and i'm the one that's responsible to conduct the gamelan orchestra. and i am the one that had to arranged the music. it is a lil bit hard, cause we have to play Balinese styla in Javanese set. but fyi, Javanese set is the most complete set, cause with it we can play the Sundanese, Balinese, even the Banjars. so here are some pics of our exhausted face after the play. and fyi the play was played in our school's canteen, and it was magnificent, all full of audience.

still in the third line, in Sunday. after churching, i go to shop at mall and look what i've bought for my self :

(the shower cream is not included when i shop, my mum bought it in Malaysia)

yeah, the third line continues with the story of evolving me, the other man, the same world. i gotta post my pictures in this 3 years. the 1st pic was taken when i was in the 10th grade. the second is last year, after i passed grade 11 and moved to grade 12. the last is like 2 weeks ago. my face changed a lot. the curves of my belly, my mustache, my beard, it's all there. here it is:

haha see? on the last pic, i was using my school's uniform, but still like an uncle right? hahahaaha

hoam, i feel little bit tired, my feet are of the ground, and my eyes something like wanted to close, and this is me, the other man, the same world. listening to a reggae-dubstyle song by Damian "Jr. Gong" Marley, called Affair of The Heart, catch ya up later bradda! VIVA LA LIBERTA!